I'm not sure I understand all that's going on in my life right now. I'm not sure I understand fully, why all the people that are in my life are there. I'm not sure if its me that's needs to learn from them or them from me. I've thought a lot about what I give off that makes me attractive to others. It has to be more than this shell I carry around.
I guess I may never fully understand what makes me, me. I'll never know what I look like through someone else's eyes, so I guess I just focus on the view of me that I can see.
Today was hard. I found myself alone. But I'm honestly that way quite a bit. Today I had a lot of time to think. I hardly heard my voice but my thought were rushing. I thought a lot about my future, about setting more goals for myself. I thought about how I could help others, about how I could improve myself.
And I missed you, more than you'll ever know, more than I should.
